Solitude 😶🌫️😶🌫️
I don't post much anywhere, and I don't reach out to people. If you hit me up, there's a 9/10 chance you won't hear back from me for 3-4 business days. It's not because I'm in a hole or spiraling; it's not because I'm mad at you or anything. It's because I simply don't have to. I'm at home, AT PEACE, or finding it - something you should try. I don't want people knowing what I have going on because people have secret agendas with secret animosity. Who feed off negativity, want to know what you got just so they can get better like just weirdness. Trust is a real thing to me, and it takes even a little bit of trust to get a genuine conversation out of me. I don't want or need validation from anyone, especially social media. Therefore, I don't need to post anything or tell anyone what I'm doing. Especially when I'm learning how to validate my own feelings. I don't reach out because I just don't have it in me. I'm a healing person, just as much as you, and it took me a while to even be able to get to where I'm at today. Everyone acts like they care so much, but they just don’t want to be alone. I, quite frankly, love my solitude. So, while I've always been this selfless person who has always put others before myself, there comes a day when I have to force myself to become selfish, push people away, stand my ground for my morals, and that's the hardest thing for a selfless person to do. So this is to forever loving the ones we love most from a distance.
